When will this end?

𝖨'𝗆 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗌𝗈 𝗌𝗈 𝗌𝗈 𝖾𝗑𝗁𝖺𝗎𝗌𝗍𝖾𝖽. 𝖠𝗅𝗍𝗁𝗈𝗎𝗀𝗁 𝖨'𝗆 𝗇𝗈𝗍 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗈𝗇𝖾 𝗍𝖺𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀 ex𝖺𝗆𝗌 

That was probably how I felt 𝗐𝗁𝖾𝗇 𝗂 𝗐𝖺𝗌 𝖺 𝗌𝗍𝗎𝖽𝖾𝗇t, though the pressure is not as bad as now. I hated 𝖾𝗑𝖺𝗆𝗌, I 𝗀𝖾𝗍 𝗍𝖾𝗇𝗌𝗂𝗈𝗇 𝗁𝖾𝖺𝖽𝖺𝖼𝗁𝖾𝗌 often 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝖽𝗂𝖽n’t 𝗄𝗇𝗈𝗐 𝗁𝗈𝗐 𝗍𝗈 𝖼𝗈𝗉𝖾, 𝗎𝗇𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝗇𝗈𝗐. 

During my time, most of us grew up as latchkey child. I don’t think parents were as bothered then to even know what is mental health. They just tell us to study, there was no such thing as tuitions we just study regurgitate everything out. Exams were easier then. Or maybe 𝗉𝖺𝗋𝖾𝗇𝗍𝗌 are 𝗂𝗀𝗇𝗈𝗋𝖺𝗇𝗍 𝗈𝗋 𝗇𝗈 𝗆𝗈𝗇𝖾𝗒 𝗍𝗈 𝗂𝗇𝗏𝖾𝗌𝗍 in anything to help us. There was no internet then! All adults could rely was print materials or hearsay from the 三姑六婆 neighbours. The only luxurious thing we can drink is Brand’s Chicken Essence 😂, unlike now … desperate mother like me will resort to 𝖾𝗌𝗌𝖾𝗇𝗍𝗂𝖺𝗅 𝗈𝗂𝗅 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗌𝗎𝗉𝗉𝗅𝖾𝗆𝖾𝗇𝗍𝗌 𝖾𝗍𝖼... 

I used 𝗍𝗈 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗂𝗍𝗌 𝖻𝖾𝗍𝗍𝖾𝗋 𝗍𝗈 𝖻𝖾 𝖺𝗇 𝖺𝖽𝗎𝗅𝗍. 𝖽𝖺𝗋𝗇! 𝖭OW 𝖨 𝖳𝖤𝖫𝖫 𝖬𝖸 𝖪𝖨𝖣𝖲 𝖳𝖧𝖠𝖳 𝖻𝖾𝗂𝗇𝗀 a 𝗌𝗍𝗎𝖽𝖾𝗇t 𝗂𝗌 𝗌𝗍𝗂𝗅𝗅 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖻𝖾𝗌𝗍. All a student could ever get is comparison of grades. Working adults get appraisals, backstabbing, toxic working environment etc..

I 𝗐𝗈𝗇𝖽𝖾𝗋 𝗁𝗈𝗐 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗒 𝗐𝗂𝗅𝗅 feel 𝗂𝗇 𝗒𝖾𝖺𝗋𝗌 𝗍𝗈 𝖼𝗈𝗆𝖾. Will they tell me "𝗆𝗈𝗆. 𝗂𝗍𝗌 𝖻𝖾𝗍𝗍𝖾𝗋 𝗍o 𝖻𝖾 𝖺𝗇 𝖺𝖽𝗎𝗅𝗍." 𝗋𝖾𝗆𝗂𝗇𝖽  𝗆𝖾 𝗍𝗈 𝖺𝗌𝗄 𝗆𝗒 𝗄𝗂𝖽𝗌 𝗇𝖾𝗑𝗍 𝗍𝗂𝗆𝖾 𝗈𝗋 𝗉𝖾𝗁𝖺𝗉𝗌 𝗂𝖿 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗒’re 𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗂𝗇 𝗒𝖾𝖺𝗋𝗌 𝗍𝗈 𝖼𝗈𝗆𝖾 𝗍𝗈 𝗉𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗌𝖾 𝗀𝗂𝗏𝖾 𝗆𝖾 𝖺𝗇 𝖺𝗇𝗌𝗐𝖾𝗋. 

Prelims in July to Aug. Main paper in Sep/Oct

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