Feeling shitty

Feeling shitty and needed to play music while doing housework. First few pieces of a fast track album didn’t help me until I played Han Seung Wook album. Yah, I wish everything is going to be okay. 

Even peeling eggs also look like shit 

Drop in tier

In less than 24hrs I will say goodbye to this tier I managed to reach. 25,000 elite miles to reach the silver tier. Of course I can’t compare with Elite Gold or PPS members, but at least I made it to this tier by own expenses. 

I’ve been on four flights after reaching this level, checked in in special lanes for Elite Silver members, clearing the check-in process faster. Elite Silver have no access to the lounge, anyway I don’t need any lounge access coz I can’t eat so much. But I do need the early boarding as I like to organise things in my seat, so I will miss this benefit come August 1st 😭. 

I must admit KF is not a generous frequent flyer program at all. 

Krisflyer started way back in 1999, then my boyfriend (now hubby) was also constantly flying with SQ on his business trips. When it started, I brought back a few forms for him to choose the numbers. Then the Krisflyer membership number is not generated like now, the membership number is printed on the application form. Like clockwork, I had to explain to him what Krisflyer was. Just glad that he was my guinea pig where I vomitted all information on him after memorizing them. I took the forms from two flights so the numbers don’t run the similar running numbers. After he and I chose our numbers, I returned the unused-don’t-like-the-numbers forms on my next flight. Krisflyer comes a long way for him as he is using the original pioneer number 😂, whereas this is a new number for me. I lost my initial membership details somewhere sometime somehow. 

Am I sad that I’m no longer an Elite Silver? Yes I am. Coz I don’t think I can rise up to that level anymore. I was only able to accumulate more miles in 2024 with the long flight to JFK and vv. 

Come 1st Aug I won’t see this Silver colour border anymore but the basic blue one.

Adios . Au revoir . 再见 . 

Auf Wiedersen . さよなら .

* EDITED. Turned to blue on 8th Aug 😭  

Mood —> drink

The types of drink I want to drink is dependent on my mood. Most days it’s just plain water.  But there are days when I feel sad, I’d reach one for chamomile. 

On 24th June (Tue), just a week back after my solo trip, I started to miss Japan and made a matcha latte. Infact, I dragged myself home from the airport 😜 that day.

Today, 29th July (Tue) just feeling so shitty over so many things. I needed a boost and I reached out for the KitKat nepresso drink. Added a bar of KitKat. Did the drink and chocolate release any endorphin?

Did this drink make me feel better? Am I still mentally fatigued? 

Sad! Cannot watch

I knew about this but I'll be away so can't go.

Surprisingly I knew about Uncle Joe coming to SIN one month late. I thought I checked Sistic website sometime in April before? How is it that I wasn't aware. Sigh..... The Category 2 tickets @ $338 is so far away! Tho I’m also there to listen to music not see his face but still …. I will save the $676 for my trip. No more cheap tickets left.  

Hopefully I'll be fast enough to grab his tickets the next time he drops by SIN.

Sakura Pudding

Bought this on Tuesday coz it’s so pretty and I’m crazy over sakuras 🌸 after a trip to Flower Dome. Ok this is really impulse buy 🤭

So sweet colour right? 

Opened one to try today. Still admiring the packaging. I love how the Japanese pay attention to small details like the green ribbon tied on the cellophane. It wasn’t just any green colour but it was the peduncle green. 

Dismantling the whole thing to take picture 🤪 just coz I’m so intrigued by the whole thing. Suaku!

Wah! Super sweet. Nutri Grade F. Diabetes alert! Nice to see but 甜死你. The base pudding is super sweet, the clear part with petal is sweet but not as bad as the milky pink pudding. 

I will have to struggle with the remaining 2 puddings

Emotions

Emotions riding on a roller coaster. I haven’t been using lavender oil for many weeks but last night I needed that. 

Maybe I should do yoga, go for a swim (I hope I’m able to bend and kick my legs. But it’s ok, I won’t drown in 1.2m pool). Maybe I  go high in the mountains and meditate.

Adeniums

2nd Nov 

After a few days of intense unbearable heat, I noticed this pot of adenium has a few bunches of flowers sprouting. 

Dunno what species as I bought this pot from the nursery 

Feather Coat - bought from guy who brings in different species of adeniums

Underglaze Red

Romantic Star 

4th Nov

These beauties took my mind off things (for awhile) 

Not much growth from Romantic Star. Or are they sprouting leaves and not flowers? I bought these small pots of adeniums (3 or 4 of them) 2 years or more (?) back and only one pot has flowered once. That’s it! Fertilisers and heck care in watering and I don’t see any flowers. So disappointed. 

Feather Coat

So upsetting and angry with self

Why do I keep dropping this phone? Usually for my phones, I hardly drop them if not only once throughout its lifespan with me. But this phone - iPhone 13pro , hubby bought it for me when it was launched in 2021 Sep 24th. I did not open the box until few months later before our US trip. Prior to that I was using 7plus (seriously?) and honestly still happy with it. I didn’t ask him for the phone but he buys phone for all of us. 

Today I had to drop the phone while I was transferring some pics I don’t need for iMovie so as to save space on phone while I slowly do the iMovie (actually I can’t do it slow, I need to finish as much as possible asap. But still have to do the itinerary and still have to make comparison whether to buy JR pass or buy individual tickets. Sianz! Che-che is supposed to do this and end up I need to pick up the pieces. Fed up lah!). I had the SanDisk at the bottom of my phone when it dropped. It fell out of my phone and under the bed 😟. And now it’s broken. 

So upsetting. Since I need to bring lil’ one to PP tomorrow I shall drop by Challenger 

Didn’t want to waste money buying anything and now I have to spend $99.90 (based on price in Shoppee). Smack my own hand for being so careless. Wait! Why is it so expensive $118 in Challenger? If I use my $20 Lendlease voucher, I’ll pay $98. So lucky I still have voucher to offset a small amount. Still…… if only I didn’t drop the phone.  

Getting so emotional

My emotion came in waves, one moment I will be so busy with housework and then next I will cry. 

It’s just so hard to pretend all is okay but it is not.

18 days later

Thank you dearie W for sending this over on my birthday. 

If only this is everlasting, I can only pray that my loved ones will stay with me much much longer. 

Uncanny as this is, this is in collaboration with NCC. The C word everyone dreads to hear. It has been my happy pill for the last 18 days when I needed it coz I’ve been feeling shitty and teary. 

Feeling meh …….

Needed something to quieten my mind, need to take deep breaths

A cup of hot chamomile tea and lavender oil. Or maybe I should just go and take a nap to keep my mind off 

All the ✈️ reminders 😥

So sianz …. all these reminders but I cannot fly

Email on 9th Sep 

Email on 28th Sep 

9th Oct 

Email on 18th Oct 

Boohoo!!!!! I want to do my sooo trip! 

Craving

Craving for something green but not disgusting. 

Wanted something that is bitter in taste but yet has some goodness and benefits to it, hopefully to remind myself that although there are bitter days they are only temporary. I hope so! Just feeling so stressed out - lil’ one’s eye therapies, che-che hunt for jobs which has no news so far (该来的又不来、不该来又来）, health for us two old folks. Health for bro and mom. 

@ Maccha House while waiting for lil’ one to end her eye therapy. 

posted this photo in FB tho and a different liner

Praying and hoping for good news soon. My mental health and body can only take this much stress. 

On This Day - (18th Aug) #Reminders from FB#

18th Aug 2022

Argh!!!

I only saw the notice for their concert this morning and wanted to tell che-che n asked if she wants to

go.

Now... doubting her words "they're very popular tickets hard to get" I went in to check. 😏

18th Aug 2022

Never knew my left foot bruise became so bad after the organ chair dropped on my foot yesterday.

So went for my class both legs pai-kah. Right knee in pain after 3rd track, left foot in pain. 🤣

18th Aug 2019

Good friends, great food.

Tho' a quick meetup together with the girls n the man, managed to catch up where we left off abt 7-8mths ago.

18th Aug 2019

* tagged in Richard’s photos

18th Aug 2017

Toilets checked!

Can't believe I actually threw essential oil in the potable toilet coz it smells!

Should I do up a rest roster for the grandchildren?? I'm the only elder here. All thanks to my 2 girls who wanted to 守夜 （all night vigil). Somebody has to stay over with them right? Now I'm having a headache coz have been doing laundry late every night / early morning n simple tidying up and a quick clean house using dry wipes.

18th Aug 2017

The Primary, Secondary and Tertiary students' idea of 守夜。

18th Aug 2016

Can you spot the moon?

18th Aug 2016

When the girls were chasing after pokemons while I was driving, I was chasing after the big yellow moon.

** pity that I can't get a nice shot with iPhone

18th Aug 2015

Dunno if any mother faces the same problem as I do...

Reading is good, but I even have to ban her from buying any more new books until the school holidays.

Why? She gets so engrossed in her books that she sneaks reading in the night after I send them to bed, she sits on the throne longer. And ...she even has her fav books with her on her bed. I can keep it on the shelf, next morning I see them on the bed again. I suggested that she can sleep with her textbooks and assessment books; hug them to sleep I don't mind.

Better still under her pillow so all stuffs get into her brain. Keke!

18th Aug 2015

Now I know why she keeps insisting I had to buy her a new storybook. She's using her storybook as her Lit text. And she told me "next time if it happens that my Lit text is a book I happen to hy, you must buy it for me!"

I don't think it'll happen again right? She don't read William Shakespeare. Heee... (not sure what the other level texts are anyway)

18th Aug 2015

Throwback to Nov 2008

I lup (love) my cousin. But now we fight all the time...

You should see the way these two "puppies" fight. Very funny

The place where she sat.. can easily mistaken it's lil' one's birthday

The group photo where nobody's looking. Haha!

18th Aug 2012

Don't they start young?

Her first set of Smiggle stationery, pressie from Che-Che.

18th Aug 2011

When I was 12,

I wanted to be: Miss Universe (coz it was held in Singapore. But I'm too short!!)

I was in relationship with: my mummy (and still is)

My best friend was: Hui Fang

My biggest fear was: Cockroaches (still am fearful)

So how about you when you were 12?

18th Aug 2011

Che-Che finishing off her last bit of LEAD hw n all the countless of HWs given for next 2 days completed.

@ Waraku - kids having early lunch

Final walk

Saddened by the lost of my moher-in-law this morning. The following days will be busy for sure.
Will update once I'm free.