Monday, August 14, 2017

Final walk

Saddened by the lost of my moher-in-law this morning. The following days will be busy for sure.
Will update once I'm free.

Wednesday, August 2, 2017


Just as I was so happy that I was able to control her. Or rather I was under the false impression that she was under controlled,  I caught her using her phone again so many times, and it's CA2 TEST week. I was puzzled, she shouldn't have access to her phone coz it's the schedule time to block her from using some partially restricted apps.
In a fit of anger, I took her phone away from her and noticed that she could go into some Apps I hadn't allowed her AT ALL TIMES. I was able to go into her phone until I had to turn off. By then I couldn't go in as she has changed her password. 
As usual, getting intensive scolding from me during test period. The mood is already so bad. I simply don't understand why is she still not putting in effort for her studies. (I'm fucking wasting my time and money on this useless girl!) 
Then she was defensive and said she was checking on school homework. I was livid why wouldn't she take note of her homeworks in school then? 

Phone confiscated! A fuming mad mother! Lucky the man is not around to hear me yell my voice in the house. (Thanks to the training I received in SQ - crash drills)

Then it dawned upon me, my girl is smart enough to know how to hack the system. And I'm still trying to Google search and figure out how she did it. 

Consolation : perhaps she don't really need to study that hard hor? She will be talent scouted as a computer hacker. 

Wednesday, July 26, 2017

And so my point on social media ...... reiterated.

Sometime early this year, I've stated the reason why I decide to make a change and start blogging here more often than updating Facebook. Where selective news to portray the beautiful facade are plentiful.

Just few days I was reading up on a local Instagram star JC. I didn't know that there was a lawsuit against her partner, ST, that went was raised up a year ago. 

I must clarify that I'm not JC fan. Long time ago, when her divorce settlement was highlighted in the papers , I took notice of this name. At first I was envious of her after all we worked in the same company. So why is she so lucky to have met a tycoon and married when I wasn't and have to slog the rest of my life away. She's beautiful no doubt but over the years she did too many things that she looked so fake. I don't understand why she did that, (not that I know her personally that she'll give me an answer) but perhaps she has some insecurity issues. ??

Of course there will be haters and fans. I read some haters who commented that she's so fake. During interview, she would have three change of clothes? She would pause interview to do touch up. Simply put, needs to look her best. So, does she have any unglam moments? Social media - people do touch ups with apps or take the fake front eg. wash face first, do light make up then pretend to lie in bed and tag "just woke up". Am I the only one who would not bother with these and show my ugly face to the whole world?         

Monday, June 26, 2017

(Backup) Our Pact - sent from heaven

As the girls gets older, we're on constant battle over the usage of phone. I scold che-che over her "big business" when she walks and looks at her phone in the mall, I don't even know why she complains she's tired of sitting down doing her work then if she's not looking at things in the mall?! While the internet is a great learning tool, it can also be the worst when the child can't have any self-control. Haha! Even adults have no self-control! But the worrying part is neglecting her studies. 

I've seen the sponsored advertisements in Facebook before, but then it was only iphone to iphone compatible. And honestly, lil' one don't fiddle that much like her sister. 

That’s why instead of scolding the girls, all I need to do is to control their schedule and .... lock their apps from the other room. All I hear is the "Oyy!" Being an IT idiot, I was surprised that the set up was much easier than I expected. It took me about 15 minutes to complete the entire set up and the girl's phones were C.O.N.T.R.O.L.L.E.D by this Master Brain. 
The entire app can be 100% customized to their week and daily routine. Like for example, che-che needs to go over to the tutor's house on Thursdays from school herself, so I extend the usage time for her.
So, what does OurPact App do?  

With the OurPact App I have the power to:

  • Block girls' Internet across all synced Apple and Android devices
  • Block girls' Apps (Facebook, Snapchat, Musicaly, Instagram) across all synced Apple and Android Devices
  • Schedule Internet and App use according to girls' daily routine
  • Set a limit to the number of hours I allow them to spend on the Internet and within Apps. Like sometimes che-che would ask me if I could turn on google for her coz she needed to check something
  • Block Internet and Apps at-a-touch
You can opt for the free OurPact where there's limitations. I opted for the paid subscription, this money is definitely well-spent.   
Although, I am a SAHM and I'm almost everywhere with them after school so I feel so much safer knowing the OurPact app provides me with a little bit of control for the kids when I expect them to be doing their homework or studying. 
Thank you so much for the creator. You've done a great deed to all parents out there. Muack!

Sunday, June 18, 2017

The amateurs BBQ-ers

老天爷 played the biggest joke on us today.

Brother booked a BBQ pit at a chalet and informed us weeks before. The girls were looking forward to this as I had made the exception of them missing their tuition and giving them their well deserved break. 

They were given 4 free tickets to Wild Wild Wet, thankfully father volunteered to go and take care of them. So we stayed in the comfort of the air-conditioned room, waiting for him to send over pictures and videos. THIS IS CALLED RESPONSIBLE PARENTING FROM A DISTANCE. Che-che did a good job in taking care of the two younger ones. Quite pitiful lor! She didn't get to play what she wanted. Nobody to follow her on those big slides. Anyway, I wouldn't dare to go on the rides (haha! this is from someone who dares to take roller coaster rides) even if I'm there. 

We proceeded to the pit to get everything ready. So excited coz... I haven't been a part-time satay seller for a long time. 

But it was a mistake from the start.
(1) Brother took a long time to start the fire. I should have googled- search how to stack up the charcoals. But I guess he knew what he was doing since he went through Army. Then mom came down, and there was another set of opinion that he set up wrongly. Hmm.... The guys from the pit opposite us came about half an hour later than us but they got everything fired up so quickly. Another family from another pit came close to an hour later, so finished everything so fast. Looking at the speed we get the fire (what fire?) up, I doubt I'll carry out the task of organising a BBQ birthday party for lil' one (she asked her daddy for one months before)  
I'm asking for trouble if I ever start to plan for it
(2) When I peered over the pit opposite us, I noticed they barbecued their food in different sequence from us. And I believe theirs would be the best - looking at the speed they finish barbecuing their whole lot of food, they were doing the right way.  I can only go on sighing at the state of mess we've created. 

Then dark clouds came in to join in our dull mood. I didn't welcome them at all. Lo and behold the expected thing happened quicker than I thought and .... we hardly barbecued anything! What were we going to do with the un-barbecued food??  真的是开玩笑。 老天爷再增我们。We had no choice but to continue BBQ-ing the food. Father came back with a parasol. Haha! You know we often complained that he has so many rubbish in his car... but this time he brought out something which is really useful. Since we're a bunch of comical inexperienced BBQers, give us 3 parasols also no use.  

I was soaked coz the rain plummet down so fiercely at us. After some time when we think we've barbecued sufficiently, we decided to pack up and head back to the room. 
Father did the disappearing act again, just when we were about to complain that he wasn't helping us at all, he came with a supermarket trolley and a canvas sheet from his car. Good timing! We loaded more things, which certainly expedite the whole moving process. 
We're damn smart in this except for BBQ-ing. We should be house movers/packers.

The kids barely even soak into the BBQ atmosphere, infact they were upstairs the whole time after they got back from Wild Wild Wet, took their shower and then it rained. 

I should have brought my AIRFRYER as it would have done a better and cleaner job. Conclusion : 
a) none of my family should organise a BBQ. Use an Airfryer, less oil.        
b) if the girls ever really really want one. I'll hire help. This way, I get to enjoy my food and company. 

WHAT THE #%^* !! - NYAA

I thought just her stupid Band +40hrs should suffice to get that 2 points. Now I'm hearing something new - NYAA Silver.
What the??!?! I would think that trying to get that minimum 40hrs (or 10hrs per year) is already a challenge and a "forced one". Not to mention, my girl has to specifically tell me she dowan to interact with people, with children.  To which I suggested she could volunteer to sweep the tombstones coz the dead won't be talking to her.  Now with this what are they trying to do? Of course you can choose not to do it. What this NYAA Silver do is it puts you over the edge over the others. Supposedly if every kid in Singapore scores 6points for L1R5 and everyone minus 2 points for CCA = 4points.

Not to mention I'm tad disappointed that the school won't help in anyway, won't suggest what to do.  What more I'm a clueless mom. I'm sorry to say but why is the school like this.  Though I'm somewhat happy that she's in my alumni, I'm also regretting that I had listened to her and didn't try to appeal a transfer to TKGS. So I pray hard lil' one score well to get out of this school. No way am I going to let my second child go through this. And with new implementation, who knows what upgraded shit the younger kids have to do. It's really no wonder that kids now don't get to enjoy as much as we did

 CCA bonus points are awards for National Youth Achievement Awards, which can aid in admission to junior colleges, polytechnics and universities.

The National Youth Achievement Award (NYAA) is an exciting personal challenge to young people between the ages of 14 and 25. It is a balanced program of activities design to equip youths with personal qualities and skills to make a difference to themselves, their communities and their world.

There are 3 levels of the Award in which you can participate – Bronze, Silver and Gold, with each successive level requiring a greater level of commitment and determination.
The NYAA Program is a do-it-yourself kit for youth development allowing you to tailor the program to suit your own needs, interests and level of commitment. The program is divided into three levels which vary in difficulty and commitment. Within each level, you are required to complete various sections that will develop your physical, social and mental skills which will serve you well into your future.
Level of AwardAgeMinimum Time Period 
Bronze14 & above6 months
Silver15 & above12 months
Gold16 & above18 months
Regardless of which level of the Award you are participating in, you are required to complete non-competitive activities in the following areas:
  • Service (volunteer for at least 60 hours spread over a period of 12 months)
  • Adventurous Journey (4D3N outdoor camp with at least 32 hours of outdoor activities)
  • Skills (At least 18 months or 12 months if you have completed this section at Silver level)
  • Physical Recreation (Take up and indulge in a sport for at least 40 hours spread over a period of 3 months, Example Sports Elective)
  • Residential Project (Plan, undertake, follow up and sustain a meaningful project that can benefit the less fortunate community at large, Example OCIPs)

Tuesday, May 30, 2017

Define "school holidays"

Please define what's the meaning of 'school holidays'.

The girls are in their 2nd day of school hols and che-che has already spent her first half of the two days in school. Another practice tomorrow and then the last week of school holidays, she's due to be back 4x. Then she told me she has lots of school homeworks to complete.  
While waiting to pick her up, I saw girls walking into the school. A few with scraps of papers in their hands (maybe they're the graduating batch?), a few with floorball stick - obviously back for floorball practice . 

Is this the Asian context or Singapore context of school holiday? I certainly understand if it's the child's crucial year (PSLE and O'levels - next year!!) and they need to be back in school but ...for CCA practices? Give the child in Singapore not only academic stress but CCA stress as well; especially those in Performing Arts and Sports. 

I remember how a friend, who went over to Melbourne with her daughter in beginning of P6, related to us that when school holiday started, her daughter asked her teacher "is there any school homework?" Her teacher replied, "its school holidays. Go and enjoy yourselves." Wow! This is totally different. Needless to say when we met up with her months down the road, she looked so happy; stress-free.

Sigh..... I can only complain and complain. If the ministry is not doing anything, we're basically at their mercy. The only way to bail out of the system would be to leave the system. Easier said than done, we're not filthy rich at all.     

Thursday, April 6, 2017


What will I buy if I strike lottery? (aha! I don't buy lottery tickets)

Stagea. Been saying for the longest time but I just don't have the money. Plus our piano is also taking up quite a big space in our small living / dining area. 

But first, I need to be up to this STANDARD to play. 


Monday, April 3, 2017

My inner thoughts

Big girl has been in the school band for 2 years 3 months, though it's something which she hates and she likes. Ha! Sounds contradicting right? She likes it coz she loves music, so it was a no brainer to join the school Band when she was opting for CCA (she's the angmoh type, gave me the face when I asked her if she wanted to try out Chinese Orchestra. Anyway, I can't picture the awkward gait when she walks around in that long dress [she'll probably tear her dress] and trying to sit demurely [her demurely?!] and plucking some strings). 

The passion
I should have anticipated this girl is different from the start when she was growing up, perhaps it's the exposure she gets from me (I enjoy instrumental, new age and jazz) so she's able to appreciate music differently. Learning the piano was a must-do, not as a sideline to earn extra bucks (though that's what I told her) but something for her to widen her spectrum. I didn't want a kid who only knew how to study and nothing else. But she did asked to learn the violin herself. In the end, had to give up coz' she was whining about the pain.
Primary school - she joined Handbells coz' - it's music and something new for her. The only one she could join since that was the only thing they had in school. She enjoyed herself throughly those 4 years, going for SYF competitions and performances. Most importantly she had a teacher who is so passionate about music. When learning music, the teacher (I feel) must be someone who teaches from the heart and soul, so that the kid is able to play from her heart and soul.  

Now that in her teens, I've noticed she's unlike any other teens who go crazy over Kpop. Occasionally she listens to songs like Ed who? Taylor Swift etc.. but not as often as instrumental or Band music. She plays them over and over again in the background when she's studying. She doesn't ask to go for any Kpop concert or any fan-gurling concerts but she ask when is the next musical coming to Singapore. She's asked to watch SSO. Very strange huh? Recently, she's into the oldie Frank Sinatra songs eg. L.O.V.E and Fly Me To The Moon. She even told me old songs are so nice; better than now. Wow!  

Secondary school - Teacher is almost killing her love. She only looks forward to sectionals. As what she says, even though somebody (HC) is not good enough, his favoritism in letting her play solo gets into my girl. I do feel the same way too! HC is not that good at all, why teacher didn't even let another senior, Y, to play solo. That girl, Y, is really superb! 

She hates Band
Though she loves being in the Band, she also hates it. He is strict, which has it's pros. See where KC Band stands now. If he isn't strict, KC Concert Band wouldn't have achieved so much in such a short period of time. But it's the favoritism that gets into girl.

If mei-mei happens to be in KC and wants to join Band. Honestly, I wouldn't allow her. Because having a teacher who hates one of my girl is enough, I wouldn't another kid to be hated by a teacher for no reason.     


Friday, March 31, 2017

Smells nice

A neighbour walked past my house as I was sweeping the balcony. He smiled, walked past and then re-traced his footsteps back to my house and asked me if I sprayed Lemongrass in the house coz it smells nice.  I cited that it is Citronella that I'm diffusing.
After he left, he got me thinking ... If he came from the direction from our rooms to the living area, he would have sniffed the Odour Control blend (rosemary, lemon and lavender) that I usually diffuse in the mornings as I clean the house. But is it that strong that he can actually smell it from the outside? If he can, I will not have the problem of ensuring my bathrooms smell nice constantly. 

I've embarked on this oily journey for a year now. Any regrets? No, not really. I do feel a little lighter after applying JOY on my wrist and sniff.

I've tried to turn into a holistical living but it's difficult especially if the man doesn't so believe in this and keeps buying chemical laden products from the supermarkets. I've listed out the things that I want to make for cleaning but ..... haven't got done to business. Sigh...........procrastinate procrastinate. 

Sunday, March 26, 2017

The type of fake parents

I love to warm up to friends, be the Mrs Congeniality. We were also all first-timer parents as our kids were the oldest in each family, so naturally we forge a friendship hoping to share experiences and learning process. But what puts me off over the years is the emergence of fake friends. 

Secret Detective
They are the parents who make use of me by digging up information where I send my kids to tuition, asked for contact number but don't even call - just claim it's for "just in case, I have another contact". But yet when I asked them where their kids go to, I'm suddenly and abruptly cut short of the conversation "don't have" and then talks about other things. I hate these people! And what happens after the girls are in different schools, they suddenly lost the contact. I know for sure they'll call or message when they need help. Ahhh..... I shall ignore these people.

Liar Liar 
Another group of parents, who keep claiming their kids are dumb. Number 1, I don't believe any kids are born dumb. Therefore I always tell them their kids are not dumb as what they claimed. Say they cannot study this and that; and do badly. If I were to complain that my kids are careless, they also complain their kids are very careless. If I complain that my kids are very careless, they complain their kids are very very careless. Totally uncalled for, because at the end of the day when they get their results. Wham! Superbly good results. What the %#@! they've been lying. 

There were occasions where I felt the girls were doing a touch n go on the syllabus. Don't ask me why, but it always seems like our girls are always behind time for this and that subject. At last minute the teachers would start begging the PE teachers for their time so that they can go through work with the girls. As usual, my work with the girls will also be behind time. And more often I'm left complaining that my girl hasn't finished revision for certain topic or subject, and these people will also say their kids haven't finished or ... haven't even started. ?? End of the day, when their kids get better results then they say they did revise. Damn! Why lie? If studied already, just say studied lah! 

Slowly and hurtfully, I know who these people are and will keep a distance from them. I know these are the people whom I can't trust or rely on them at all as friends coz they were only there to make use of the kind-hearted me. 

However, I'm also thankful for a handful of nice friends who are genuinely nice people. 

Friday, March 17, 2017

Damn cockroaches!

Damn it! In a span of only 1yr + living in this house, I've already seen 5 cockroaches in the house (more frequently once all the neighbours moved on) . Compared to seeing only 3-4 cockroaches in a span of 13years in our previous house.
Once, within one hour, I saw two cockroaches (big ones) crawling out from our drain. I have this mentality that when I see any pest in the house including housefly and ants, I'll make sure I kill it immediately. So they better not let me see them. Which infact, is also scarier for me, especially when I'm cleaning the house and I least expect it, the bugger jump onto me.    

Honestly, I'm wondering if it's worse it my neighbour's house. I don't think anyone is as hardworking as me to :
1) Diffuse the living room and yard area every night with Citronella
2) Drop Citronella or Thieves essential oil into the toilet drains
3) Spray insecticide in chute area every night. Including air dumping it for 5 seconds
4) Spray the yard perimeter. Ehh.... only from the bottom coz I would think that cockroaches are more likely to climb up from the ground level to my house. OMG! I hope my neighbours upstairs don't have any infestation, they can also crawl downwards right? But how am I going to spray insecticide? Unless I want to go blind for spraying it upwards.
5) Recently, I've dropped Citronella onto cotton pads and put them around what I deem as strategic points - our rooms. Just in case we get a night creepy crawlie into the room. 
6) Diffuse nightly in girls' room either Cedarwood or Thieves if there's intruder alert. Sometimes as much as I'd like to stake out with a blaster and KILL ON SIGHT, I can't do it coz' though I may be impatient, I can't stay out that long idling and doing nothing but to look left, right, up, down.  So the only best thing is to hope I'll see it on sight again in the day time and kill it. Coz more likely it'll come with sound effects - my screaming (as I fight with that small but yet horrendous pest). Not so nice to scream in the night right? Scare the neighbours.
7) Tape up the drain cover in the yard area. Occasionally I'll see small roaches; earwigs stuck on the tape. if only....if only I could.... I'd love to tape up all the drain covers in the house. 
8) When  on long holiday, I'll seal up the chute gaps as well. 
Haha!  I don't think anyone is as extreme as me. Well.....what to do? We're on the first floor. 

I really hope all the cockroaches will be extinct soon. Really! That will be a welcoming news to the world.    

Tuesday, March 14, 2017


Why does favoritism even exist in this world? Why can't everyone be impartial? 

Che-che is really pissed with this girl from her same cohort in the band. And worst! They're in the same section.

Since Sec 1, she's been complaining to me about HC, how irritating she is.
1) Act like she knows everything but actually don't know
2) Rude
3) Orders people around
4) Kiss up to teachers' ass / Pulls strings
5) Cries like a baby
6) Good actress

Many times I asked che-che to complain to the Band Teacher. But she says he won't listen coz he favors her plus he hates my girl's guts. And she can't show the proof coz' HC will twist the story around. And most times it happens during sectionals. Meaning, different sections goes to different room for practice with their tutor. And there were only 2 of them that year!  
She has also complaint, grouch about her, to her close friends in school but nobody believed her. Some even tell her to forgive her, she can't be that bad etc.. But this year, some of them are in the same class as her and they finally seen for themselves what my girl says about her. 

(1) Act like she knows everything but actually don't know
What transpired during sectionals was that she acted like as if she knew how to play the saxophone and kept bragging that she's doing G8 for her violin. So she claims she's THAT GOOD / TALENTED in any instruments. (Truth is, she do play the violin with another girl, B, in school sometimes. But when I spoke with my friend W, she didn't have anything nice to say about HC - in a world of her own. Doesn't listen to others.). Oh! She did tell the tutor that she's better than him. HUH? Daring! Then she should teach! When he asked them to play scales, the smarter than tutor girl couldn't even play. When she did, she said she could play going up but can't play coming down. ?!?!?! Tutor snubbed at her "I thought you said you're very good. Grade 8 and you don't know?" Personally, I feel good listening skills will be able to help a person with the scales.   
Che-che is the quiet type as compared to the wayang HC, in such incidences HC will be the domineering kind whereas che-che will be the 'bullied' one. Thing is, girl is the non-confrontational type. She also knows she won't stoop down to her level to 'fight' with her coz eventually people around them will be able to see for themselves who is the better one. 
She has a big A problem. She tends to rush through playing, I don't know if she's trying to catch a train or a plane. So when she rushes through the piece, everyone else's has to follow pace otherwise it'll be disastrous. 

(2) Rude
HC has dropped her saxophone and tuner many times. During one of the sectionals, her tuner was spoilt. She didn't ask for permission from che-che and reached out to grab che-che's tuner. That took che-che by surprise as it was clipped on the stand, as a result of her using her strength, she dropped the tuner on the floor. That was the rare moment when che-che got so angry and shouted at her. And she ...... cried, acting like she is the victim of bully. What the ?!?  

(3) Orders people around
Acting like a boss, telling people to do this and that since Sec 1 and 2. Sec 1, during sectionals she would order che-che. But che-che can't be bothered with her. Mid of Sec 2 she was chosen to be the Section Leader (just coz she's the teacher's pet or she tries to act the bullied one in front of teacher, so teacher took pity on her that everyone is going against her. If that's the case, I'll say the teacher is also one kind who can't make proper judgement) and expects everyone to listen to her but nobody does. She acted like she was better than che-che and .... okay taught the juniors wrong thing. Che-che corrected her, and she snubbed back at che-che saying she is correct. And when tutor came back and scolded the juniors she kept quiet. However this year, things took a change when teacher scolded the juniors, the bitch actually put the blame on che-che and another senior Y. When I asked her why they didn't fight for their rights since the juniors are there as witness, she says the teacher won't believe a word they say. 
I asked che-che so what happens when the juniors join them in the main band after half year, she said she just sat and watched, didn't tell them how bad that girl was. But slowly they realised who the bitchy person was and .... didn't like her and ganged up against her. She's keeping quiet with the new Sec 1s.
Even now, she says the juniors take no orders from HC. Instead they listen to che-che, so she says she's like the Section Leader instead.      

I had a good laugh recently when HC asked two other girls to stay behind either on Monday or Tuesday for additional practice coz' they need to get in tune. Che-che's reply via her spam Instagram account reads :"just saying but practicing tuning doesn't mean you'll be in tune during the concert. its better to practice ur HEARING to know whether u are in tune or not."
Che-che's not wrong. It's true. That girl don't listen to others. I've heard her play before. Years prior, she don't get scolding but this year seems like the teacher is scolding her more  - according to che-che.  

(4) Kiss up to teacher's ass/ Pulls strings
And sorry to say that teacher also don't know how to make a good judgement. 
Last year's WBAS, according to che-che HC knew the judges. So she was able to get into the Advance Band coz' usually it's only those in JCs or upper secondary will be in it. However I did explain to che-che that whether she likes it or not, this is the world. Alot of people try to make use of connection to get their position, not based on their capability.

(5) Cries like a baby
OMG! Please grow up! You're already a teenager. Even my 8 year-old girl don't cry like you do. Small little things, she cries. 

(6) Good actress
Ahh..... but it takes a veteran - ME - to see through her acting skills. Afterall, don't forget I was once an SQ girl, the best actress in the world. Hahaha! 
I remember that was last year (Sec 2) when they had a recital, she "limped" her way down the stairs in the room. Acting like she was in pain. I rolled my eyes ... true enough when she reached the bottom of the stairs and then she walked on flat floor, she wasn't limping. ?!? She was cured! In the car, I asked che-che and she was shocked that I saw through her acting. Said she cried when there was only a bruise, pretended to be in pain BUT nobody asked her how she was. And she spoilt her saxophone after she ran and fell. AGAIN! In Sec 1, before the recital also she ran and fell and caused a dent in her saxophone. I noticed she was gesturing something to someone that time. After the recital, I asked che-che if HC had to borrow someone's saxophone. I'm good, ain't I? I should be a fortune-teller!

All in all, I asked che-che over the years if it's likely she's going to be the Band Major next time. She won't be surprise coz' she's teacher's pet. Things took a turn, for the good, Band Major is -- NOT HER! Thank goodness! It went to a girl who truly deserves it. Apparently, she wasn't happy. Maybe it sank into her that her years of kissing up teacher's ass went into the drain.  

At least che-che isn't a hypocrite. She don't stoop low or bribe people to be her friends.

Yet again, it's sad to say that some people who knows how to put on a fake front in the presence of others will always win and get away with their misdeeds... because they are just good at that - acting and feigning innocence... 

Friday, March 10, 2017


photo taken from :

Memories : It's been 30 years since I took that road.
I used to think it was a steep slope when my quite old ah-cek (who has a gold tooth crown and always smiling, he never seem to be under any stress even though there were kids fighting/quarrelling behind 😂. How did he do it? I'd be under stress n fiery if the girls quarrelled behind me) would look 👀 attentively to the front as he drove down the slope and I would pretend it was some kind of thrill ride,clutching to the seat infront of me. And when he drives up the slope, I was kinda worried his run down van would roll backwards as you could hear the "chuk chuck chuk" sound. 

Today, I drove down and prior to that was wondering how steep exactly it was. Do I have to step hard on the brakes? Was surprised, maybe coz when I was younger everything seemed big; steeper? 
I was so tempted to drive up Jln Khairuddin,another uphill where my primary school once stood. 
As I left the place, I told lil' one how I felt in the schoolbus when I was a little kid, younger than her current age. That was part of my childhood. 
Got me thinking 💭 ......which part of her childhood will she remember next time?

Thursday, March 9, 2017

Why the sudden U-turn

This blog was started in 2005 with the hope of penning down every moment of my boring life on an online diary, with some hidden agenda that this will be my Alzheimer's or some sort of "retrieval of my memory" treatment in the near future. 
With online danger lurking by exposing pictures of my family, I should have kept this in paper and pen. However knowing myself and my hubby, hubby will throw out things that don't belong to him heartlessly when he sees too much rubbish. I too don't like too much of a clutter, I believe I would have at some point of time choose to scan into the hard disk and throw the diary away (there goes my memory coz who would go through hard disk? That reminds me I had better remember to give my blog password and hard disks to my kids earlier should anything happen to me. At least they would have taken the time reading through the blogs; reminisce the photos I took of them in their ugly; sleeping and pretty time.)

My blog then was a relaxing point for me. While in the process I did not neglect my motherly, wifely, maidly and chauffeurly duties (no such words but you know what I mean) because I have the bad habit of writing, saving, editing an entry that sometimes it gets posted out late. As I speak, I have a few Drafts in here.

Subsequently, Facebook came along. I joined in 2009? Or was it 2008? And it was easier to post on Facebook as it was an App on the smart phone which made it so easy for me to vent my anger; share my joys and tears and shits. In recent time, I've suddenly realized (like a lost child who had walked  waywardly from religion) that Facebook is merely a place for people who wants Face Value. People are simply showing off, with their friends envying them putting them on pedestal. When their kids received awards, they post pictures without writing anything in it coz pictures paints a thousand words. Okay, I admit I also post entry of my girl winning awards but that would have been in my diary if I had resorted to paper n pen. Basically if you notice in Facebook, hardly anybody vents frustration as much as me, everybody lead such beautiful blessed life posting only the good things to show off when they bought a new bag;  received a coveted item as a present; while I lived a ...well my true life of ups and downs. Thus I decided to make a U-turn back and start writing back in here. I'll need to backtrack a lot of entries though as there were so many occasions when either girls made funny comments and I had written them down on Facebook. 
Facebook isn't that bad afterall, I've managed to link up with long lost friends; friends from overseas. What I like about Facebook is their "On this Day" app where prompts will be sent to you on your posts posted years ago on the same date. It's nice reading through what funny things had happened or silly things my girls do. 

They should have a Blogger app for ease of posting. Honestly, I have no idea who is reading this now but I'll be a little more hardworking. 

What I want to say is :
Sorry for the long intermission 

 I'm back 

Affiliation school changes

And so they announced that  "From 2019, the 27 secondary schools in Singapore that offer their affiliated primary school students priority in the Secondary 1 posting exercise will have to reserve 20 per cent of their places for students with no affiliation to the school." (source :

Thank goodness I only have two girls with the older one currently in my alma mater, come 2019 - yup! It'll affect my last kid. I don't think she'll be that bad to be unable to get into the sister school right? My God! Seeing her P5 results is ... her HMT is .... I can vomit blood. If it continues this way, I really have to start worrying.  

Over the last two years, che-che told me more and more of the primary school kids came back to the secondary school. When she was in Sec 1 (in 2015), not many of the primary girls went to the secondary school. Their results were good enough to go elsewhere. Infact statistically their PSLE results in 2014 was really the best! They had 100% pass and their overall performance were definitely better than the next 2 years. Thus leading to the low COP of the secondary school. 

To divert a little, I used to wonder why the COP in our secondary school is so low compared to another two more IJs. That's coz we only have one affiliated primary school whereas the other two have two affiliated primary schools. So majority of the space would have been filled up by their own girls thus leaving little space left.