Finally! Months later, my solo trip blog entries are up.
Editing took so much time, I hope I didn’t miss out anything. I can’t seem to change the fonts for Part 1 and kindda gave up.
Finally! Months later, my solo trip blog entries are up.
Editing took so much time, I hope I didn’t miss out anything. I can’t seem to change the fonts for Part 1 and kindda gave up.
Flying off tonight and doing last minute 想来想去 if I had missed out packing anything.
Health matters
Slightly better sleep last night. I don’t know if hubby pinch or tried to scratch/grab me coz I put the pillow standing between us. For HBP - I’m reassured for now. Just hope it continues this way, and holiday will lower my cortisol in some way. Don’t want to rely on medication, hope not heading in the same direction, so now need a proper healthy diet when I’m back. Haha! Actually I will coz I’ll need to go vegetarian for a week after my trip 🪷.
Dropped by GP to get altitude medication - Acetazolamide for both of us (hubby didn’t want to go to his GP to get medication 🤨) as well as extra Soden for lil’ one. She ran out of that after her last tonsilitis treatment.
Honestly I didn’t know about such thing exists until MH asked me if I brought it with me. I told her “ehh…too late.” 🤣
Packed medication in lil’ one’s carryon, risky to pack in checked luggage.
Essential oil
I always pack Breathe Again with me on every trip. It was in a way helpful for me, and when someone in the group up to Yulong Snow Mountain experienced dizziness I offered her Breathe Again. She said she felt much better and the smell is nice, ok I dunno if the lady was just being tactful. It helped me coz this dumb dumb girl (me) wanted to act smart …… spaced out oxygen tank usage on the way up to 4000+m then the moment I stepped out of the gondola - 😵💫 Dizzy 😵💫. Haha! Immediately squirt O2 and sniffed my Breathe Again
This trip I check and realise yes it does help in high altitude. I had to pack eucalyptus globulus coz hoping can ease hubby heart palpitation. Aiyoh! And he refuse to get medication here, you think eventually will I get HBP coz I’m so worried for him? Hopefully he will feel better this trip. Torlong 观音菩萨 bor pi bor pi him.
This popped up in my Instagram
to get myself more tired. Crazy! I just needed to get my mind off things. Hoping to lower cortisol and lower my blood pressure.
So funny. While I was doing housework the man went to gym. I went awhile later after he came back.
@ 1.36pm
I hope I’m ready for the coming trip.
Deleted the iMovies from phone, deleted all the photos I don’t need. Coz usually I keep them in the deleted folder until I confirmed the iMovie can playback.
Actually why still 1/2 storage used. Sigh….
Just so many things happening around me. I’m too stressed.
Worried about lil’ one (which is a lot of things), angry with lil’ one not taking care of herself her tonsillitis, worry about something else, my iMovie pressure. I mean it’s suppose to be happy thing right since going another holiday. iMovie pressure is quite silly but I guess I do get aggitated and gancheong easily. Then another stupid thing that add on to my stress and bad mood.
Then insomnia, my blood pressure went up. 155/122. It’s damn high I thought the machine is spoilt. Doctor said it’s high. It’s not supposed to be that high! My blood pressure is normal so to see these “hitting the roof” numbers is scary. Must be all the insomnia and bad sleep causing the high bp. I choose to think that is the cause and not because of another stupid bor-liao thing that is making me even more stressed.
For the last few weeks my sleep has been interrupted. Tossing and turning but cannot sleep. 2am, 3am, 4am my eyes still big big like owl, brain still alert, ears alert as suddenly hubby will be talking in his sleep. I’ve been doing lots of deep breathing as my lungs seem to be heavy, as if someone is sitting on my chest. Can’t be the pillow right? I’ve already changed my pillow to the cradlesloth pillow. And that was the bestest pillow I ever slept on! Then I don’t know why but hubby has been more aggressive in his sleep now, he’s been fighting with someone in his nightmare. He has talked and then punched me 😂, then scratched and grabbed me when he sleeps on his left side. I hope I’m not the person in his nightmare. When he sleeps on his right side, he has knocked down things from the side table. This has been ongoing for many months, but it has gone worse the past few weeks. So when I’m trying to sleep suddenly he punch or scratch/grab me. For the last few weeks, I’ve been trying hard to sleep. Exhale out slowly thru my mouth wondering if I’d die in my sleep coz I have trouble breathing in the night. Seems an eternity but still can’t sleep. When I am about to doze off, he comes and punch / scratch/grab me. Wah… then I cannot sleep again. Earplugs on to block out his snoring, lavender oil on wrists to coax me to orh orh and now I need to put a pillow behind me. Yet he can push the pillow to my back. Wah…..why he keeps having nightmares?
My heart heavy my head heavy. Been having headache for past 2 weeks. I probably need to go to a temple and meditate. I actually did play some Buddhist songs just to calm myself down.
Too stressed until my menses didn’t come. Which is not what I want coz I prefer to go on a holiday without the hassle of having my menses. But yes it means I’m under stress. So leychey! Somemore going china where gotta squat in toilet. I can’t squat properly. No bidet. Wah piang eh.
Then I have another worry. My health check report came back. I definitely need to monitor and do another mammogram again. Sob sob.. women basically go thru torture to kiap the neh neh. It’s so painful. Just hope it’s nothing serious. Pap smear also not done yet in my health checkup, hopefully I’m healthy.
Then some bloody nonsense from …. Fuck lah! World so much problem and still gotta add this borliao thing.
Think you may not know what I’m typing, my words are incoherent now. I type as I think, I think with everything jumbled up. Just know that I’m angry, I’m worried, I’m stressed. And I need to get this out.
This thought began in our Jan China trip. When we were in China, sakura and tulips kept popping up in my Instagram.
One day someone said there’s tulips in Guangzhou and we were heading there a few days later. I begged to go 🤣. So happy in the morning but went there ….. 😭 wah they were pulling out the wiltered tulips infront of me. Heartbreaking or not? And putting in hydrangeas.
有点不甘愿 and went to check about our March trip in Chengdu. If weather permitting there are cherry blossoms there should be tulips right?
So happy right? I mumbled that I never got the chance to go Keukenhof. I was telling hubby for the March itinerary, please please please if he could plan a day to see tulips.
Torlong please, I’m not asking for lottery but a chance to see tulips, please gimme a chance to see them in the fields.
So pretty! I want to go. A place to see tulips, sakuras and the alps. A picnic mat is missing tho.
25th feb
I did plan these 2 spots in my solo travel itinerary. But I wasn’t blessed with views like this so …ok good excuse to go back.
25th or 26th Feb
28th Feb (Sat)
Same prompting again. Tulips 正在慢慢的长大
Not related to Toyama but the Japanese temples and shrines posts do get my attention as well. I’m no holly molly but stepping into temples makes me calm. I love stepping into BTRT, the 4th floor, away from the tourists hustle and bustle area. There’s a platform where one can sit there to meditate. I’ve always wanted to do that but everytime when I drop by BTRT I’m always in a rush to head somewhere else after that. Not that I know what and how to meditate 🤣 , may end up sleeping there.
Tairapyoyama 平標山
I talk as if I’m going the above mentioned places soon. Truth is, I’m not even sure if I can go. Need to be frugal, me not working and dunno what the world is going to be with the madness of somebody. If only I am rich.