A mummy’s love ❤️

Altho I secretly want to toughen up my girls and don’t make them rely on me, I couldn’t help but I thought of her when Mr Thunder got so angry and started raining heavily . 

At that time, rice is cooked, I popped the dishes into the oven to keep them warm. 还是去载我的大宝贝。反正有空时间。

还是这个妈妈好 😬

不只是我. Daddy is the same. He always say don’t bother “big girl already” blah blah but he makes an effort to send che-che to work. Chey! He doesn’t practice what he preaches. He dotes on his nottie girls. 

Woke up feeling so 😵‍💫

What the heck is going on? Old age problem? 

First I suddenly had a headache on Saturday, had an early night after that. It was slightly better the next day. Could it be due to the bad interrupted sleeps for the longest time? I scared my hubby wants to harm me 🤣🤣. Those sudden nightmares he had, sudden outburst in the quiet nights shocks me, his long arm reaching out and trying to grab/scratch me. Who is it? Please own up. Who’s the one giving him the nightmares?? Maybe it’s ME 🤨🤔 ??

Then on Monday morning I woke up feeling dizzy, that usual feeling when I get up too fast after looking down, just that it was the whole day!

Sat down for 10mins and took my BP, I didn’t want a false reading (when I was in the clinic) again. Normal leh…. 

On Sunday, I planned to go the gym the next day coz the next few days will be busy, nah…aunty dowan to suddenly faint or die inside the gym. Or maybe aunty just lost too much blood last few days and haven’t topped up with beef? 

Lil’ one kapo came into the room to see what I was doing in the room. I took her BP. Wah! She was screaming “so tight! So tight!”, must be so nervous that her BP shoot up. So funny lah that girl 🤣.

“Doctor, my MC not accepted by 3 bosses”

Aunty dizzy or not still no choice must do housework. Additional task for Mondays - wanted to procrastinate scrubbing floor mats until the next day but cannot tahan to see the mats on the shower stall floor. Stood up after scrubbing the mats and felt even more dizzy. And I wondered how I managed to cook dinner 😂. I didn’t dizzy-ly giddy-ly threw in more oyster sauce or sesame oil right? Anyway I chose to steam two dishes, stir-fry veggies and deep fry chicken - easy dishes so can’t possibly unintentionally poison my family

@ 9.40pm - after cleaning up the kitchen and my shower. Still normal leh…so why keep feeling light headed the whole day? 

Choy! Not vertigo please. I still want to go on roller coaster rides before I grow even older and heart cannot take it anymore. 

Just thinking could it be hypoglycemia? After I stopped keto years ago I still don’t deliberately add sugar in my drinks. And I don’t intentionally stop sugar coz outside food sure will have sugar. Things that is beyond my control, I control. I either drink water or no sugar added drinks now. Just a week ago I ordered a wintermelon chinchow drink from a bubble tea shop, I wanted no sugar but staff said cannot control the sugar level. Ok lah 死不了, body won’t be sensitive to sugar like on keto days, coz I have sugar introduced into my holy body. I was wrong! At home I drank my drink and within half an hour I had a bad headache!!! 这么夸张! Kept telling myself it could be coincidence. Really I don’t know, I’m not going to put myself on the laboratory 🐀 test. So maybe my body now is used to a lower sugar level? Maybe that explains the dizzy spell? Maybe I have excuse to eat up a huge bottle of Nutella 😬?

Whatever it is, I felt slightly better the today. Not that dizzy anymore, but still not that 100% usual me. 90% maybe. The dizzy spell is a mystery.

Petit plaisir

 🎶 The Paris Musette • La vie joyeuse 🎶

Needed a deliberate borliao indulgent moment to get away from the shits in my life. I could have whisked my 🍵 matcha but decided to do something different. Strangely, I think coz of the shits happening, I just wanted something PINK. I had to do something pink, I think pink will 📈 my dopamine instead of green. Not sure if it’s proven that pink is suitable for what I needed mentally, but heck if Lily says it’s pink then it’s pink. 

Not doing a big thing but just a cup of lychee tea. Oh well, the tea leaves are not pink in colour. Tea will not be pink but at least it’s not green. 

You must be wondering all I need is to steep the tea for 5mins, how can it take my mind off things for a short time? The answer is - taking photos of the steps. That will delay the simple task. Finding a nicer space in my not-so-nice house without any random things in the background. Sigh…I don’t have any nice background and now I’m thinking if I should spend the money to buy a stupid useless small collapsible photography backdrop box 😂 so I can have a cleaner background to my useless borliao photos 

Oh! The packet is pink！

Faites-vous plaisir

P.A.U.S.E 

Focusing on the present 

Tout en sirotant mon thé noir et en grignotant des litchis, j'ai terminé ce goûter par un délicieux macaron.