Trying to find peace 🎶

I never get a chance to amplify my music with the TV coz somehow someone in the family is playing theirs. When hubby is home, he watches his Chinese slap here slap here short low budget dramas, if not it’s che-che who starts playing her ah-boy boy or in recent days - AKB48 - songs. So I finally got my chance today. 

I love to have music in the background when I’m doing things, even when I’m cooking. It sounds different when I put music on that small handphone speaker and the huge Yamaha soundbar in our room and the Prism+ amplifier in the living room. However it’s always not convenient to do so especially on days when hubby or che-che works from home, I will end up doing work without music. There are days when I feel I want to cocoon myself up so I end up using my AirPod to listen to music and block out from the world. 

Music 

Music has a way to find into our inner feelings. To undo the whatever shit we’re feeling. Maybe? Let’s see if 6hrs later I feel better or not. 

Me and my music

Am I always under too much stress that I need music all the time? Do I always need to regulate my mood to soothe my bitchy self? 

Friends who knows me well knows that my preference for music is usually instrumental. I mean I do like Frank Sinatra, the oldies, Ghibli, Disney, musical tracks etc.. but 95% of the time I prefer to have just a jazz quartet plucking the contra strings, an orchestra playing dead composers’ compositions, lofi, korean cafe etc.. Basically I can’t really explain what I love, as long as they’re calming and music to my ears. 

There are some days when I feel I need to keep myself up and moving and that oomp feeling, I choose volksmusik 🤣. Remember I wanted to pick up 🇩🇪 German? 

Needing some comfort today

It’s the weekend. I’m taking a self declared rest. Tho I know I will end up ironing the clothes tonight coz nobody else do the ironing except me. And I did stop my blogging awhile to clean the toilet walls 🤣. I’m sick! I’m really sick in the brain. 

Housework - half detox

Cooking - half detox. Pre- ordered Grab for lil’ one and myself for dinner as che-che went out. Lunch : lil’ one had pasta and I had my fried rice which I cooked yesterday.

Social media - full detox

WhatsApp - full detox. I have three friends messages to reply to but I needed time for myself, I hope they understand me for my lack of response. 

Feeling so emo so empty and sianz with life …. I needed and thankfully I had it for (possibly) only 6hrs. Before che-che returns home and continue blasting her Japanese songs. Making full use of the 6hrs. For some reason I am feeling so so down that I want flowers, fresh flowers, with me. I look out into my PES, I have pots of no-sight-of-buds adeniums 🤣. Only the small red messy euphorbias can cheer me up as little as the flower. I want tulips! I want peonies! I want roses! I want cherry blossoms! I want ranunculus! I want poppies! 

I needed something to relax and make peace with myself therefore today’s choice of music is french cafe jazz. Italian cafe music can be nice too but I feel so inline with French today. Just can’t put into words into my explanation. 

Mesdames et messieurs voici le menu musical du jour

Then ….. coz I sat infront of the TV, Effiel Tower made me miss Paris. The pickpockets are holding me back from going back to Paris, no money is also holding me back from even thinking about getting a flight there. Sigh….me think if I’m still not married and no children now am I still happily flying in the sky? 

Listening to music, blogging and going to plan the menu later. I need to try to clear the freezer as the condo will be shutting down electricity next next week. 

This is my last weekend without the man in the house. Looking forward to him returning back coz 老娘很累、受不了了！ 

“Dans un café, la musique est le companon idéal”

Rained heavily today, I left the PES blinds up coz I want a bright airy open feel. It’s ok, I drew the curtains and sat there editing my blog entries moving from one entry to another. I can’t seem to concentrate and finish one, just go about jumping from here to there. 

Mind tired so took a half hour nap on the sofa. Seriously, I don’t mind if all my weekends are like this, doing nothing. I love to stay at home. But the girls always like to go out, and coz I needed to spend time as family I end up going out with them. 

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